Friday, June 9, 2017

Today

6/6/17

Today was hard. Today was painful.
Today was long. Today was busy.
Today was tearful. Today was sad.
Today was exhausting. Today hurt. 

But

Today I was around people who love me. Today I laughed. Today I was hugged. Today I was comforted. Today I prayed. Today I smiled. Today I was heard. Today I was hurried to. Today I contributed. Today I worked hard. Today I learned. Today I was on time. Today I was creative. Today I ate ice cream. Today I made people laugh. Today I didn't give up. Today I kept going. Today I made it through another day. Today I did my best. Today I woke up. Today I breathed. Today I looked for the good. 

Thursday, November 3, 2016

Current Status

Current Status:

Hanging in there.

Looking for the good.

Focusing on the happy.

Being grateful for the blessings.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Sophomore Perk

Familiarity makes me feel powerful—and not in the “do-what-I-say” or “I-know-better-than-you” sense of powerful, but in the quiet confidence kind of way that comes with being sure of what I'm doing.

I'm headed into week three weeks of my sophomore year at Brigham Young University. My freshman year was fantastic and though I haven't been a sophomore long, I've already figured out my favorite thing about it: familiarity.

I've always been one for familiarity. I'm not change's loudest cheerleader. Actually, I'm rarely in the squad at all. I prefer consistency and being comfortable in what I'm doing.

Familiarity is knowing your major and the classes that will get you there. It's knowing several professors in that field and waving to them across campus.

Familiarity is knowing all the acronyms for the buildings on campus. It's being the one people desperately ask for help when they're late and can't find their classrooms. It's knowing the nooks and crannies of Learning Suite and immediately being able to tell which of your professors will never get the hang of it.

Familiarity is knowing the best corners to study in and where the WiFi is weakest. It's knowing how to navigate the 10-minutes-between-classes traffic. And that is an essential skill for survival. Especially when you have to be swallowed into the funnel by the Library, JFSB, SWKT, and Science Center to be spit out into the open air again.

Familiarity is knowing when and where they'll have free food and which lines are worth standing in for it. It's knowing when the best and worst times are to walk through the Wilk. It's knowing which microwaves have the shortest lines. It's knowing which printers are always unreliable and where the next closest one is. And then you hope and pray that that one isn't broken too.

Familiarity is having only one class where you don't know anyone on the first day. It's being shocked when you go an entire day without seeing someone from an old class, ward, dorm, or hometown. It's not caring what people think when you go running across campus to scream, laugh, and hug your friend—whether you haven't seen them all day or all semester.


Familiarity makes me feel powerful—and not in the “do-what-I-say” or “I-know-better-than-you” sense of powerful, but in the quiet confidence kind of way that comes with being sure of what I'm doing.

Monday, August 29, 2016

It's Okay to Have a Thought

Sometimes you have random thoughts.  And sometimes you wish you would just write them all down to free up that space in your brain.  Sometimes you wish you had kept up on your journal writing.  But sometimes you get busy, so you don't write for years.  And sometimes you want to start again, but feel guilty for all the things left unsaid, so you don't.  Sometimes you're starting your sophomore year of college.  And sometimes you're just feeling anxious and wanting a place to put that into words.  So sometimes you decide you'll just go for it.  Because this past Sunday I was reminded to be okay.

Be okay with the uncertainties.
Be okay with not having all the control.
Be okay with not having all the information and all the answers.
Have faith, trust in the Lord, and go forward.
Pray, get up, and do.
Move forward without everything being perfect, without having all the answers, without knowing the end.

So here I go.